Valentines

all valentines day is a waist of money buying cards and flowers for one day that was once a pagan festival but now has been brought out by the card and flower companys to make money i use to to think it was worth it up till last year when i brought a load of candy hearts for the girls i worked with half of them are gone now moved on to other jobs but this year its not worth it

whats wrong with me

why do i find it hard to say somthing to woman i like i get tongue tied to easily

good days bad days

a good day is when i go to work get all my work done get home have tea maybe a little sleep and then check my email and speak to the most fantastic person i know miss april all those things makes a good day for me

a bad day when i get to work after a few days off and they have not approached anyone to cover my work of they have and the person comes up with a lame excuse like they have forgotten how to do the work when it was 2 or three months since they did it my memory is good at best but i rember how to do bits of work after a quick look at it.

what makes bad days end on a good note is when my best friend is online i moan to much to her but she says it doesnt matter she listens to my moans i listen if she wants to talk to that is good friendship

are blogs really there for a moan lol

take care love ya all

a few days later

well this year i am trying to improve myself by getting a new job a partner and most important i am going to visit my best friend. the two years i havnt gone there felt horrible i miss them a lot when dont go there i whole is left in my heart.

matter of the heart

when it comes to matters of the heart i have been known to keep my feelings to myself which can be a mistake because i miss out on telling them my feelings it has happend a few times in my short human life. i get shy when i try to say things i kick myself a lot for not saying anything but maybe there not right for me i don know

well take care
one and all

peace out

day 1

day 1 of 2007 nearly over already just sat at home relaxing back to work tommorow shame ah well i have to keep telling myself it will get better take care bye for now

NEW YEAR NEW start

this year i am determined to change a few thing i need a new job more pay then the agency i work for i need to find my soul mate i also have to visit my best friend dont want 3 years to go with out seeing her and her fantastic family they make me what i am today with out them i am empty